what am i to you?

♫
what am i to you?
tell me darling true
to me you are the sea
vast as you can be
deep the shade of blue...
-what am i to you? by norah jones

always make your absence felt, in such a way that somebody misses you. but let not your absence be so long that somebody starts learning to live without you.
-anonymous

i drank too much last night, got bills to pay,
my head just feels in pain
i missed the bus and there'll be hell today,
i'm late for work again
and even if i'm there, they'll all imply
that i might not last the day
and then you call me and it's not so bad,
it's not so bad...
-thank you by dido

'cause my heart starts beating triple time
with thoughts of lovin' you on my mind
i can't figure out just what to do
when the cause and cure is you...
-weak by swv (sisters with voices)

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last week when i was at moa with my family, i felt so good. despite the fact that i had a day-long depressing conversation with somebody, i was still in a good mood because: 1) the conversation was depressing alright, but at least i was able to let things out of my system and 2) people at moa wore smiling faces. pramis, it was strange! almost everybody was smiling and i felt that some of the smiles were specially for me. like i remember when i went out of the fitting room in one of the shops, the lady who was next in line to fit her clothes smiled at me. and it wasn't a sarcastic smile, OK. i smiled back. it felt good. it was like i was in a feel-good movie, you know? i felt like i was in this scene where everybody is being friendly to one another. basta, it felt good.

i dunno if you (i'm assuming i have readers, OK. hahaha) can relate to what i'm saying. what i'm trying to say is that it just really feels great if everyone around you is smiling. those smiles made my day. akala ko pa naman mas masungit ang mga tao doon kaysa dito sa davao. the thing is, i don't think i've experienced that in davao yet. weird!

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konteng update lang po...

it was my first time to dine at roadhouse (SM) earlier during lunch. masarap ang pagkain nila. i recommend their sizzling pochero, sinigang na bangus, and baked tahong. yumm.

i got to watch pala ocean's thirteen kanina. wala lang, brad pitt wasn't that pogi and i still can't figure out some of the details of the story. hahaha. i'll probably watch ocean's eleven and twelve para maintindihan ko.

rachelle, carlo, and i ate at pancake house after the movie. wala lang, mahal lang ang pagkain. hahaha. afterwards, carlo and i accompanied rachelle as she purchased a birthday gift for karla. carlo then helped me buy some groceries before i went home.

somebody told me something today. i didn't know how to react, really. i was kind of shocked. pero sobrang na-appreciate ko yun kasi alam ko it was difficult to say. sorry kung medyo magulo ako kasi magulo naman talaga ang mundo ko ngayon. char! hehehe, it's true. you know what i mean. uhm, thanks... basta, thanks.

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my second year of biology is coming up. i don't know what's in store for me. all i know is i really need to study na. pinapabayaan ko na lang palagi ang studies ko. i mean, not really pabaya but i know i can do more eh. i. need. motivation. peste. dagdag pa sa problema ko yang adding and dropping na yan.

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i noticed something. i am always happy when i'm out of the house pero when i'm alone in my room, i have all these sad thoughts. i'm not always like this ha. baka isipin ninyo i'm some kind of a depressed freak. it must be a phase or something. i miss being busy. i miss some people. things are not going well. gusto kong umiyak.
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