at last, a plan

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sometimes i wonder what truly makes me happy. these days, i often find myself sad and helpless because i can't do the things i want to (oh please don't give me a sermon about being spoiled and all. please, not now).

and so, in order to start putting an end to this depression thing (which nobody seems to understand), i'll make a list of what i want to do/achieve and how i could achieve them:

1. learn how to drive → ask daddy to teach me for the rest of the semestral break. if i don't learn, i'll enroll into a driving school this christmas break.
2. have higher grades → thankfully, i've found the main solution to my problem with low grades: CAFFEINE. and, yeah, less Y!M/friendster/multiply time.
   
3. get rid of my dermatitis → sadly, it's already part of my system, probably forever (but hopefully not!). so really, i dunno what i'll do with it... probably just continue medication? and (*sigh*) continue avoiding all the food that i'm not allowed to eat. whooo. kaya ko 'to!
4. give decent christmas gifts to family and friends → i've already started working on this one. i've been saving moolah for christmas. hopefully i'll have enough to spend when shopping time comes.
5. lose weight → this one's really difficult, considering the fact that i'm not allowed to perspire... shet. so maybe, what i can do is just to get rid of all snack times.
6. stop being hard-headed → just... stop.
7. spend more time on music → be more active in the choir...? hmm...
8. spend more quality time with mabu → finish school stuff early so that i'll have extra time.

good luck to me.
God bless me on this.